1979年，诗遍全国的一年，有一个机会，表哥带我到宝鸡的诗人渭水家里，走在一个老小区的小楼，竟有去天堂的感受！我坐在那个狭小的二楼小家，竟然是那么凌乱的的，普通的，一个工人的家庭！他的诗在陕西已经是顶呱呱了！我被诗捏去魂了，不知自己生活的贫困，不知自己家庭的破碎，甚至不知自己的前途渺茫！

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回到文化站，一头扎进诗的海洋，一游，三年，挣得三元钱，三年以后，投笔从考！

我的第一首诗，梦

如梦境一般

tai

futu

e?of?myself!

如梦境一般

正午的烙饼

我是用黄土高原的枯树烧的金黄的黄米做的

清晨到河边

红色的河岸圆形的石泉我舀起满是驴粪的泉水

我喝一半，驴喝一半。

满是梦想的诗歌满是英语的疯狂满是日记的悲伤

我睡一半，书睡一半

如梦境一般

我吃一半，老鼠一半

如梦境一般

夜晚的冰炕

go?back?to?the?cultu

al?statio

,?plu

梦里的高考

有延安大学的窑洞有美院白色的石膏像

失败即地狱，成功是天堂。

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不一定是好诗，确实是我当时的真实生活写照。诗意是一种高度的感情，与精炼的语言结合体。是一种个人修行的最高表现。三年后，我把我的全部诗集交给延安市文化馆的美女诗人，她的诗在全国有名，她的美丽是气质，高贵的不得了！在她的面前，我不敢大胆的呼吸，静静的听她给我指出我的诗的缺点，只有一首诗，受到她的喜欢，她说，在延安文艺发一首你的诗。我欣喜若狂！

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紫色的荞麦花

白色的姑娘的裙子飘逸出快乐

所有的脸在笑

那首诗是秋

所有的道路都通向田野与粮仓

金黄的黄米

秋天的喜悦

通过蒲公英的白花

通过夜里划拳的酒香

红的发黑

太阳的脸也在笑

你听，笑声是麦田里小车的吱吱声

oads?lead?to?fields?a

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通过满满的粮仓散发出一年最幸福的光芒

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别了诗歌，我不得不面对现实，考延大英语系26分落败，到延安去，听说第一个美术学校招生了，我在农村买了20斤荞面榛子，可以做凉粉的那种，送到文化局局长那里，直接不要，但是，我的诚意打动了局长，我可以去学习了！告别了志丹，告别了诗！我要为考西安美院而冲刺了！现实是残酷的，我只有小学4年级的水平，我的美术是零！25岁是考美院的最后期限，那年，我23岁了！只有两年时间，我要越过初中的文科书籍，我要越过高中的文科书籍，更重要的是，我要越过美术高考的关口！我能成功吗？听上去这是要挑战不可能！

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